swimfree

Life is such~

2005-03-25T02:39:00.000+08:00

Have been really busy lately..busy being rebelious and getting noticed..seeking for parental attention and all..What say everyone about the things that have been going on?Is it a good idea?Is it this, is it thAT..I totally lost with all my questions and doubts..memories as always floods the mind of man when at their most vunerable moments..Tired, lack of slp and all..can't seem to train properly..its still a struggle..wondering why he let me go juz like that..but life is such..knowing the truth may not be the best answer..being ignorant would prolly be the best in some situtations and at a certain stage in time.-hugx myself- i know its disgusting but yea..i need to love mself at times too..got brought up And let down by another..It ain't a nice thing se-rious-ly..i reckon if smth happened at this very moment, he will never know about it cos he never watches the news neither does he read newspapers..maybe once in a while he'll look at the soccer section from New Paper..But that doesn't state anything..my mind's in a whirl now..Having a good feel of someone is such a hard thing all over again..maybe like i said i should just love myself..Something i took from clara's msn nick.."Any broken heart can be fixed with that right doctor found". Yes, but how many a time can we find that right doctor? Not that i am not believing of the situations at hand now but just that seriously..its not an easy task.I'm going off to do something else..will come in to blog soon..I'm still waiting for that 1 day..

+jumbled post+

2005-03-05T11:34:00.000+08:00

i Didn't feel like putting a title today..Guess it was because i could not think of any in the first place..hee..ANyway its been a long long time since i have updated my blog..More of lazy cos i have been out till late these days..Am looking for a job so i can make sure i got money on hand to pay for stuff..hmmm..I guess i'm done with him already..He ain't the most imprtant thing anymore..Maybe not even on the list of importance to begin with..hahaha *Party poopers and champagne to celebrate that i'm over him!!*

Yep been going out a lot lately, out with Gary and Shuyu for KTV at AMK yest..till 11 hahaha..the day b4 was out with Kelvin and his freinds for dinner..Tue was out with Sindy..Mon..came hme supa early..felt i needed a break from everything and came hme to slp but i ended up cooking dinner instead..*Michelle wonders aloud proudly that its her 1st time cooking dinner for everyone in the family!!* hahaha..Saw Jessica at TTC yesterday..Was out to buy some snacks and saw her when i came back..heh..She's gotten her tix from MH to go MEL le..Leaving on 19th May..Prolly ask if she wana come out for coffee before she leaves.Lemme update wads going on lately..hee..all that juicy gossips and all the suspicious looking eyes from my dear "twin" Linda..haha Oh yea..She's my twin becos we calculated that if my mama is her mama too..Then Just nice she is 6 months older than i am and i am a premature baby so the timing is just nice so yea she's like my other half le..hahaha..Good sista anyway! She's in BKK(Bangkok) now..Coming back tommorrow..hee..Have been going out with her fren called Marvin..Nice guy..Yes..I'm lying if i were to say no..but whichever that ain't important..I just wana play hard and studee hard so i can get somewhere..actually save money too so if possible i can try to pay part of my stuff on my own..hee so no need to always rely on my papa mama..they also got no money le..hee!

Went for NUS Biathalon with Terrence frm my sch..Came in 4th with a medal..The 1st for the year..I want more..I'm craving for more medals..My aim is to win in ivp..any medal would do..Made a pact with Justin..He beats Hanrong and i win in IVP. Hope i got the time to go for OSIM this year..But must find my kah kees 1st..Dunu if it'll be the same combi as last year..

Yes will be out tonight..maybe with Marvin..No idea where yet..But am going out early to look for pressies for the teachers of TTC(The Travel Connect). They have been such great teachers and not to mention all the great fun i had in there and much more to come man! Hee..Am so going to miss them and the stopover itself..hmmm..*bubbles*

Back to chai dou..saw her at S11 the day before when i wanted to have my dinner..Yes i sat down Yes we exchanged glances and thats it..Nothing more..Guess i still dunu wad he sees in her..Don't really wana know too..Like linda says..Take it that you're blind for once..So its almost there i'm almost over him already..No longer the xin dong feeling le..Its someone else who has taken over that place of his..But whether or not this will go on i don't know..Come what may..I'm happy as i am now..Busy with all my schedules and appoinments..Sometimes i need to relax a little..hahaha..Guess that's about it for now..I have thought of a title for this post..*+jumbled post+* cos it consist of so many things and its not in sequence..hahaha!!~

2005-02-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

spend all your time waiting for that second chance for a break that would make it okay there''s always some reason to feel not good enough and it''s hard at the end of the day i need some distraction oh beautiful release memorys seep through my veins let me be empty oh and weightless then maybe i''ll find some peace tonight in the arms of the angel fly away from here from this dark cold hotel room and the endlessness that you fear you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie you''re in the arms of the angel may you find some comfort here so tired of the straight line and everywhere you turn there''s vultures and thieves at your back the storm keeps on twisting keep on building the lies that you make up for all that you lack it don''t make no difference escape one last time it''s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees in the arms of the angel fly away from here from this dark cold hotel room and the endlessness that you fear you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie you''re in the arms of the angel may you find some comfort here you''re in the arms of the angel may you find some comfort here

Isn't this song familiar? Yes..It's Angel..i so feel like crying now..Really wana cry..I don't lnow what's going on in my life..Honestly, what's going on..Was in a total daze this morning..It was really bad..Was in some state of shock or rather too upset over what happened on Saturday..

I was so fucking pissed..For crying out loud..Anyone would be..Darn it! He was suppose to meet me for supper but he drove his aeroplane (who cares if its a toy 1 or the real 1) all over Singapore and he never even left me a msg or even a call to say he's isn't meeting me..For Christ sake..Where the hell have your manners gone my dear?!?! That also goes to show how little i mean to you..Which is why i'm sad..I'm pissed cos he can actually not even say sorry when i called at 3 am in the morning to check if he's fallen into the drain or something..All he said was he's at his brother's place helping him to do homework..Do you think i'm an idiot? If ouy don't want to meet me you could have just said so..Why pull all these stupid, childish stunts?? I don't have that much american time for myself but i'm taking it out for you..Can you at least respect me?? I have my pride..Yes, i love you but what you have done is way over the limit..I got to be nuts to have waited for you for like some 6 hours..Gee..What the hell was i thinking.. Why didn't i even bother to call you?! No..More like why did i bother to call at 3 am when i knew you'll probably be at her house and actually tell me a lie of some sort..It isn't the first time you know..Do you know how much it hurts? Its driving all my friends up the wall cos of my crying and my sillyness..My best friend said if it was her, she won't be able to sleep cos if she did..Her bed would break cos she'll be fucking angry..

I need some explaination from you at least even if its juz a sorry would be better than nothing..I'm going to suffer from a mental breakdown..Its either you let me go all at once or you draw the line clear as friends..You're not making things better..I don't know what is your relationship with her but don't try to hide it cos if you are with her then so be it...I have nothing to say if you think you'll be happier with her..But just don't treat her the way you've done to me cos what goes round comes around too..I don't wish for another girl to be treated the same way i have been treated cos it really degenerates a person's soul. It robs the person of her smile and it hurts real bad cos she feels like she's drifiting between reality and memories..

I'm tired..Exhausted..Hope you'll have a good Chinese New Year before i talk to you again..It'll probably be the last time talking to you..I don't know man..I'm almost dying from mental torture from you..

Happy Chinese New Year to all my dear friends out there! Must eat more during CNY, don't worry about putting on weight..Work it off after CNY..hee!

Fly free

2005-02-05T13:03:00.000+08:00

Have been better lately..i dunu wad he wants..hmm said to mit for supper tonight..we'll see abt it..if he doesn't get to me by 7pm den forget it..well...spoke to val n she said to tk time to grieve over it n not rush into the logic of " 30 days n i'll forget him" thing..Its useless..anyway..life's ok lately..poor linda..gone thru so much e min her mom's back frm taiwan..yea..met his sister at TTC cos she came to collect her card..

He'll be leaving for msia on sun morn or nxt wk i guess..cos it CNY..i think he practically lives in me cos i can predict every ans to every qn that i wana ask..Tried it with jo n yea..haha..its proven..i guess i have also proven that it i don wana let go..not that i cant let go..cos i guess i'm too grieved by it..its taking a toll on me..it still is..i'm falling sick alr..Had gastrics yest that could kill..it hurt like hell..much like the time i was at his plc n yea..dunu wad i'm blogging alr..arghx..~ shall go back to my laundry n stoning

shattered

2005-01-30T15:40:00.000+08:00

Got the meaning of shattered?? It juz means broken..that's what i am now..Shsattered thanks to the many things that i have hoped for..perhaps..I think i can confirm that he is back with yanling le..It doesn't matter anymore does it? I have finally started to make a stand and that is to let go and accept things le..I hate it..I dislike being so tired..I utterly dislike the feeling i am feelin' now..This song i am listening is so fucking applicable to me now man..

我等你词：瑞业曲：光良不做考虑也没半点犹豫我就说了这一句　我等你你眼中闪过了一些讶异更多的是怀疑　所以你可以离去不相信你还会回心转意是我任性才决定　要等你我眼中的泪没掉过一滴只是随你背影　慢慢倒流进心里（底）我等你半年为期逾期就狠狠把你忘记不只伤心的　还包括一切甜蜜（你应该已经和她公开在一起）要等你要证明自己我可以纵容你在心底也可以当你只是路过的人而已爱到痛之极才需要一段等你的限期来遗忘自己

I shall put my heart as well for now..I'm like pissed and all and definitely sad like hell but what the fuck is wrong..I dunu wad i want now..darn~

tired~

2005-01-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired..both physically and emotionally drained..shaggeded is e word..Dunu how long i can hold out..I'm like struggling day to day..Trying to motivate myself for training..Muz start to take care of myself and prepare for a good long journey ahead.Even if its a tough one..which i believe so..But i'll endure it..

Went to the temple with Linda yesterday..Sigh~ Wanted to ask for a lot but couldn't get 1..Linda said maybe it was because my heart was too confused and stuff..Going there on Saturday to ask for a lot again..No idea what to ask for but yea..Just wana ask for a lot on life i guess..Can't keep going on like that..Meeting Ivy too on Saturday i guess for a coffee or something..I'm as poor as a church mouse now man..

His sister called me to check up her cash card cos she left it behind 2 days ago..Made a report on it and now its with me..Claimed it today..Some nice soul returned it i guess..heh~Going to slp supa early today..Need to get my rest befor i fall sick or sth..nt a good idea to fall sick now..Its CNY soon..bubbles~ Soon after it'll be Valentine's Day too..sigh a day that i'll spend with my coach which i have done so for the past..The past say.. 6 years?! ya boy..6 friggin' years that i have been spending V day in the pool training and no exceptions made this yr! Never mind..Swimming won't lemme down somehow i hope..Pray no Lifesaving training..i'm a swimmer not a life saver for God's Sake!!

Can't tahan le..Need my slp soon..yawnx~

Travel The World

2005-01-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

I haven't updated my blog in ion ages!! Simply because there have been some errors with it and all my post wouldn't show till Shuilin did up my blog for me..Hee~ thanks babe!! Also because i have been pretty lazy to do so..Just kinda not know what to write sometimes..

Met up with my sec sch classmates last week and it was pretty fun even though it was just the 5 of us..hee..Geri, Beatrice, Elizabeth, Samantha, Shermaine and me..We sat at Raku bar cos there ain't any place at Wala Wala's..Was due to go there with Kester on Friday but something happened and i can't get to him..Beatrice still stands like a class chairman and speaks like 1 still even after 2 years away from sec sch!! haha..the rest look the same..Geri probably put on a bit of weight but she sure looks better! Hee..hmmm..Went Wala's with Jem kor and his friends and left my hp in his friend's car when they fetched me hme and that explains why Kester and the whole world could not contact me at all..As if i vanished into thin air..hmmm...

Open house was last week's major event in school..Had a good time trying to practice my chopstick skills from both the Kendo booth and the swimming booth..Oh man..My hands ached like crazy trying to pick up marbles as fast as possible within the give time of 1 min in soap water that got into my poor eyes that were considered tiny already! Hurt like crazy *sob sob* Saw him too..heh..Happy to see him..It always puts a smile on my face no matter what mood i am in when i see him..He's such a miracle still..The biggest miracle that has befallen on me up till now..Hmmmm~ Should i get him a V day pressie..*Wonders aloud* Will it be wierd?? Oh well..I'll decide soon..=) bubbles..I'm kinda tired lately..been fallin sick and getting well then sick again..arghx..oh well..gotta take good care of myself and all..arbo he going to say me again..ask me go drink water etc..

Meeting up with my bro's ex and my pri to sec sch good friend Melinda..So glad to be able to meet up with her..heh..hmmm a good time to meet up all old friends and all..Do all the catching up..Talking about that..Time flies..I'm going to be 20 this year!! *boo hoo hoo* sad sad..So old le..yawnx~ getting sleepy..hope i get my hp tmr man..Alex's bro ain't answering his hp..sigh..but i wan my hp..I'm missing the precious pouch of mine..Yes yes..its frm him la...anyway..till then..keep in touch and luv all peeps who have been so tolerent with me and accompanying me all this while since the day things changed in my life..hee! Thanks a lot peeps!!
Got 3 New Year resolutions..hmm let's hope i'll stick to them..
1. Stand up and face the sun and brave all obstacles that come my way to get to my designated goal
2.Save up and go overseas for exchange program
3.Pass my driving the 1st time i take it!!
The first 1 is important cos i'm still waiting for the day where things will fall into place and hope he'll walk back into my life and continue from where we left off..Silly but yea..I'm happy being "cheated" if he's happy doing what he wants..Yawnx~ going to rest le..Can't tahan anymore..

mini miner..~

2005-01-06T11:20:00.000+08:00

I'm so bored here at my current stopover..There are things to be done but you know..I'm like just so not in the mood to do anything..hahaha..Have been doin some "Di Neng" things..Like going all the way to Thomson just to eat dinner with Rachel hoping to be able to bump into him by any chance..haha!

Been having insomia lately..can't get to sleep..Its getting worse day by day..My panda eyes are wide open even at 4 am in the morning and i'm to wakie at 6 30..argh..What pure torture..I know Jem kor have been wanting to tag a message to me on my tag board but it isn't there..arghx..I'll work it out soon, i'll try. There's a E-test tommorrow at the E-learning plaza and i've got a whole load of notes that i've gotta know by tommorrow and 2 reports to do up by next Wednesday..gee..I'll have to go study in a minute or in an hour..So i can finish up my syllabus in time for tommorrow's test..I got into the stopover of my choice wor!! Its Travel Connect..hee..I think its gonna be really busy cos we are to help start up another section of the travel agency and yea we will need to know about the different countries and the packages that the company is offering..hee! Met up with so many people lately but still haven't got the chance to meet up with my dear Chantelle..woosh~ Bubbles..I'm missing him again.. He is probably the only guy in this entire Earth who can make me do such "Di Neng" stuff..like purposely walking to south canteen for breakfast,walking past some places in hope of being able to bump into him but i'm not evne sure if i will get the chance..hmmm..Oh well where's all this going, i ain't the slightest idea..Let's hope one day either one of us will see daylight and hope for the better..Let's hope i really can get my chance back or something..Ok, i'm nuts..I don't know what i'm really typing anymore..Am kinda tired cos i walked frm AMK to sch..Was slping on the train to sch and overslept..so yea..hahaha..hmmm..I'm meeting his sister on Saturday and yes..you guys are going to ask me whatever for..It's to pass her the Christams present that's way way overdue already and yup, meet up for makan or something like that..wee~ Alright i'm going to study now..Will blog again later i guess..hee!!

silly? hmm..

2004-12-20T11:10:00.000+08:00

Gee i haven't updated my blog for 3 whole good day..hmmm..life was quite okie..had some funny encounter with some guy and did a lil shoppin' ..attended a burfdae party and met up with ol'e frens..good to hear all are doin' well..hee!~ Let me give a brief update of the past 3 days..

Friday i trained and then met up with my cousin for dinner at Holland Village burger king..ate the kid's meal cos i never really had much of an appetite since that day that changed my life..hee..After dinner we walked to the bus stop to take our bus and when my cousin left this guy just came outta nowhere to ask for my number but oh well i wasn't the least interested..i guess i wouldn't be for a long long time..yes and rachel knows why and so does shuilin..hee!

Saturday was a day of cleaning in the morning..cleaned my floor cos i didn't know what to do as i was meeting my friend at 2pm and i had time apparently i thought so..hahaha..By the time i finished cleaning it was like 1 pm and i have not showered and all..(ewww...) I'm awfully late and out of time span..called my friend oskar to tell him i'll be late so yea mit at 2 30pm instead. I was still late in the end but oh well..Hee did some cologne and perfume shoppin at Lucky plaza, got some super cheap deals for both kenzo flower minature and a hugo boss 30ml for 30buck..haha..ate bread for lunch cos i ddin't know what to eat and went to play a round of Daytona and took a neo print with oskar..haha..Busy day cos after that i met my mom for another round of retail theraphy..bought a denim skirt from Song & Kelly cos its on sale. Met daryl my "younger brother" next to go to Ranny's party and we got lost..Took the bus on the wrong side of the road..arghx..we were so hungry when we got there and it was like a 10 min walk from the main road into his place..Met up with the 3 amigos (nadya,rachael and bf,alicia), James and his gf and he got his license. It was pretty fun tho..hee but was quite bad when ranny took out the guitar cos it reminded me of him when he played the guitar the first time i was at his place to study the first time and it was a saturday..went hme at abt 11+..

Competition was on at Yishun and met up with Helai,Regina and Dominique..It was fun..hee just to take a timing only nothing much..I mantained my standard!! hee..so happy..bubbles..went out with my mom and did my christmas shopping..bought stuff for ivy jie (my bro's ex and a close sista of mine) , bought his sister's pressie cos she took good care of me in M'sia, bought my collegue a present and that's abt it i guess..Reahced hme and watched the taiwan variety show "zhong yi da ge da"..It was so furnie!! My mom was so mean she had to dedicate the song that Eric Moo sang on the show..(tai sha meaning silly)..Oh thanx man..hee!

Alrightie..that's abt it for now..hee..will write in tonight again..bubbles

alone?

2004-12-17T13:16:00.000+08:00

Drugs leave u alone more than ever but what does love leave u with?i've not taken drugs before so i don't know how alone it can get but i know what love has left me for sure..Its left me alone and i mean really alone..lost and hurt..It leaves me feeling everything except happy..I went to meet rachel yesterday, my long time secondary school classmate whom i've known for abt 7 years(she has the same problem as well..)Maybe we have loved someone more than we thought we could? Maybe more than we even love ourself in this life of ours..

We ate at pasta mania and we had a really small serving,compared to when we had our ex-bf's next to us..a lot smaller..(don't u think so rach?) we prolly can go w/o food for days and not a feel a thing anymore..Let's have a look at our food composition for yesterday's dinner:

-1 prawns and shrooms (pasta was linguine)
-1 combo A set (Ice tea for the drink and mushroom souop)
-1 russian salad

prawns and shrooms was sth i always eat when i was with him..Ice tea was wad we would always get other den the coke and the sprite that sizzles. Russian salad was wad rach wld get when she's with her ex..*siGh* are we juz pathetic or are we juz hopelessly lost?next we went for dessert at Olio Dome at the other side of bishan near the interchange and we had some oat meal caramel dunu wad ice cream with green tea gelato,vanilla gelato and peanut carramel gelato with cookie bits..sth along those lines.Olio Dome was the place i went with him and his friends and my other friend camy..after dinner juz for a chat and some coffee..reminded me much cos we were not together at that point of time..I dunu wads wrong with me now..i'm like so into biking or sth that my frens who haf or don haf license will come look for me at times and i'll get a lift from them..I dunu if he's heard that i'm on a bike..It maybe doesn't really matter anymore to him whatever i'm on? the nick sounds so familiar.."sleeping..will call u when i waki~" That was his nick when he was coming over to my plc for the night..gee..kill me maybe i'd feel better?I'm hurting inside and all over..Living my life on a cloud of my own that floats and makes me dizzy all this while since the 29th of Nov..Everyone's got somewhere to go for Christmas Eve dinner..i'll be at hme looking at all the couples in front of me and get questions like "hey where's your bf??" sth that i'll haf to face all the time..it sux..it really does..its so sore..arghx!!! I found a song that prolly will keep me going for a long long time..with it i prolly can survive even if i'm alone..rach u wld luv this too..u haf e song gal..its through the rain by mariah carey..

When you get caught in the rain
with no where to run
when you're distraught and in pain
without anyone
when you keep crying out to be saved
but nobody comes and you feel so far away
that you can't find your way home
you can get there alone
its okay,what you say is

*I can make it through the rain
i can stand up once again on my own
and i know that i'm strong enough to mend
i hold tighter to my faith
and i live one more day
and i make it through the rain

and if you keep falling down
don't you dare give in
you will arise safe and sound
so keep pressing on steadfastly
and you'll find what you need to prevail
what you say is
*
and when the rain blows
as shadows grow close don't be afraid
there's nothing you can;t face
and should they tell you
you'll never oull through
don't hesitate
stand tall and say
*
i can make it throught the rain
i can stand up once again on my own
and i live one more day
and i can make it through the rain
(ohhh yes you can)

you will make it through the rain

Isn't it a lovely song that will keep you company no matter what the future holds? A song that tells you to press on and persevere..Talking abt persevere..dunu why but i heard him talking to me in my dreams asking me to persevere..perseverance is the way..i'll stick by it no matter wad..
-Tip of the day-: wake up to a beautiful day and smile

Waiting for you...

2004-12-15T17:19:00.000+08:00

I'm waiting..will still wait till the day i'm convinced that we can't be together..I'm not convinced as of yet..Feelings are still so pure..Too pure to let go..

不做考虑也没半点犹豫我就说了这一句　我等你你眼中闪过了一些讶异更多的是怀疑　所以你可以离去不相信你还会回心转意是我任性才决定　要等你我眼中的泪没掉过一滴只是随你背影　慢慢倒流进心里（底）我等你半年为期逾还是不能把你忘记不只伤心的　还包括一切甜蜜要等你要证明自己我可以纵容你在心底爱到痛之极才需要一段等你的限期来遗忘自己
-rene lau, waiting for you-

No matter how much i try to convince myself that maybe we would be better as friends but it doesn't work, saying that time will heal all wounds but it'll leave a scar in me..One that contains happiness and no regrets..Will we still get together?? Maybe yes maybe no..even if i say i'll let heaven decide but i'm so afraid of losing you somehow..still..
Injured myself today during games..remebered how you taped my ankle for me when i sprained it the day before and on the morning itself ofwimming IVP 2004..*sIgh* It hurts but as sturborn as i was before you knew me and till we went our ways, i'll still go for training no matter how it hurts cos that's about the only thing that'll take my mind off things and you for at least one and a half hour to two hours..bubbles..

loVe..

2004-12-14T10:19:00.000+08:00

Wad is love? To me.. love has always been a complicated thing..Its something that can make or break a person..Love is sacrificing for it..love is but a choice, an act of free will. it comes with nothing, and it goes with nothing; how much may it actually weigh - it depends on you. (With compliments from Rachel, my secondary school friend..) Yes, it is a choice..A choice made by either one party to go on or to go their seperate ways..
Something that my cousin wrote to me in her blog which touched me..
i'm coming round to open the blinds
you can't hide here any longer
my god you need to rinse those puffy eyes
you can't lie still any longer
and yes they'll ask you where you've been
and you'll have to tell them, again and again
and you probably don't want to hear tomorrow's another day
but i promise you you'll see the sun again
and you're asking me why pain's the only way to happiness
and i promise you you'll see the sun again
come on take my hand
we're going for a walk, i know you can
you can wear anything, as long as it's not black
please don't mourn forever, she's not coming back
and yes they'll ask you where you've been
and you'll have to tell them, again and again
and you probably don't wanna hear tomorrow's another day
but i promise you you'll see the sun again
and you're asking me why pain's the only way to happiness
and i promise you you'll see the sun again
do you remember telling me you'd found the sweetest thing of all
you said one day of this was worth dying for
so be thankful you knew her at all
but it's no more
dido, see the sun
-Tip of the day-:close that chapter, make peace with yourself (with compliments from my dear cousin jUnie)
I have spoken to him and found out wad he's thinking..Its a clash in personality..That's wad he says and i'm taking it..I'm living again and i'm letting fate decide wad goes on between us. Who knows wad the future will hold for us both? I'll continue to wait for you..Anyone can make me happy but no one could relive the happiness i had with you..No one at all..*hUgx* We'll still be friend's and i'll always be here..

Cold cold day..Shivers in the rain..

2004-12-14T01:44:00.000+08:00

Gone were the moments that was cold..i'm back in my room now typing into my blog and making new changes to it..still trying to figure out wad's wad..hee~ The day was cold and stale..tots of him kept running thru my head..I tried hard to put my heart elsewhere but it doesn't really seem to work..Thanks to Shuyu today i could get my blogskin..hee! Thanx a million gal..but i dunu how to change the song..its making me fall aslp like a lullaby =)
Bubbles bubbles burst..*blink blink*
He still cares i guess..but does he miss me? Will he ever miss me?Will there be a day we could work things out? Tots and questions of such run thru my head a zillion times and for a moment i think i'd have fainted with the numberous transactions of tots made in my mind..I shall start planning wad to do each new day..hee i shall try to busy myself but i haf to talk to him on Wednesday, by latest Thursday so at least things could like "come to an end"..
Sleepy already..i betta get going to sleep before i can't waki for attachment tmr n waste off my flexi leave!! Happy coaching driving to him and wishing him a safe journey @ all tyms wherever he maybe..*hUgx*

Tip of the day: - Hope for the best but prepare for the worst.-

Rainy day..

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What a rainy day..It makes the sky look so gloomy..Oh well,i've just learnt how to do an online blog and will have to improve on it later when i get back tonight i guess..

~-Tip of the day-~: Look on the bright side of life as there is always more to life
With compliments from my best friend Madcow